Clomid Round # 2 : Clomid day 1 (on Period Day 2)

My dear babies,

I guess, mummy won't be expecting you guys this year after all. So much for desiring a 2008 December baby. I thought that if we were successful this time around, there is a big chance of having a christmas baby! But, it was not meant to be.
Mummy was all lethargic yesterday......but more even emotionally lethargic.
Daddy wasn't much of a help, he was busy with work as usual and did not even spend time with mummy to console me for God knows I was feeling so so low.
You know, I feel so alone in this. Although I know he wants you as bad as i do....
but daddy is just not the sensitive kind. And he mentioned something last night...at that "i guess getting pregnant is only easy in movies".... which kinda bruised my heart even more. But i kept it inside and did not show my sorrow. I do not want things to get emotionally strained. I'm already down in the pitts.....I can spare myself more agony.

Sigh...

In fact, I've been having this cramps since about a week ago. Little cramps on the womb area. I was concerned what could it be. Could it be implantation? because during implantation, there are cramps too. I've never had cramps a week before my period. This time i have it ( could be because of clomid or the HCG shot i dont know) The period cramps on my first day was horrible. It felt very sourish and nagging pain. My flow was heavy even on the 1st day. Today is the 2nd day and the cramp still didn't go away, which usually does. And still very heavy flow.... My period cramps, if any, usually only happens on the 1st day. Today, day 2 and still very crampy. I feel tired. Extremely exhausted. I do not have the mood to do anything.....I feel emotionally drained and strained. The thought of having to go through clomid and doctor visits and jabs...and planned sex seems such a chore. I feel like crying....though my heart weeps....my eyes shed dry tears.

I'm a strong person. I can go through this. I can handle this........ I kept telling myself.
I thank God for blogs, i can write down my thoughts and need not keep them to myself else i would go crazy and my mind would explode with overloaded worries.


Well, lets hope for more follicles and pray for twins. I hope i can handle this. Ganbate mommy!!!

Clomid - Day 1-5

So, since it did not work again naturally........I studied more about how clomid works and its effects on the internet. I know what I will be going through and felt ready to give it a go. So I gave in to clomid.

I started on clomid on Day 2 of my menstruation as advised by my doctor.
I don't know why she told me to start on day 2 because from the research that I have done, most doctors prescribe clomid either on day 3 or day 5.

I did not take note of the dosage that I had. But i presume by taking 2 tablets per day. I would be on the 100mg dosage.
I realized that usually the first time taking clomid, should go with 50mg first.......and slowly increasing the dosages the next cycle if unsuccessful.

Anyway, I was careful taking clomid. I was told to take them at the same time everyday for five days. I had mine 7pm sharp every day.........except the last day, i was glued on the internet and forgot about it till 7.30pm. about half an hour late. Not too bad. :)

Secondly, I read up about some side effects that could arise by taking clomid and some of them are such as:

- headache
- increase mood swings
- blurry vision
- pain in the ovary
- hot flushes
- multiple pregnancy
- tired

Soo.............. did i suffer from the above symptoms??
yup....but a pretty mild one. Not very bad.
I felt slight dizziness on my head. My vision are blurry but i am short-sighted so it does not make much difference......

On Day 1 and day 2 i did not have ANY symptoms at all and i was like.....oh cool......no side effects on me!!! this is great.......

But i began to feel EXTREMELY tired day 3 onwards.....very very lethargic and sleep a lot.
I felt very easily agitated and moody. Very unlike me!! because i don't normally have PMS symptoms even......

[edited: I just remembered that another symptom that i experienced by taking Clomid on my period cycle day 2 onwards, i felt cramp all over my womb through the whole menstruation....i normally only have slight cramps on day 1. But with clomid.........the cramps was throughout.....and slightly more severe. Also, i realize i had bloated stomach and felt very gassy and farted alot too.....]

Today is Day 10 for me (calculate from day 1 of menstruation). Clomid on day2 through day7.
was suppose to see the doctor today but she's on leave!! haiya......wasted my time to go over.
Anyway, will be going tomorrow to see how the eggs are doing.

We're suppose to shag every 2 days from today and hopefully will be successful in conceiving.
The good thing about clomid is.........we have 10% chance of conceiving twins(pray hard for 1 girl and 1 boy!!) 1%(or lesser) chance of having triplets......yikes.....

To clomid or not to clomid?

To clomid or not to clomid? That is the question.

I have NEVER heard of clomid before in my entire life.
I am also very apprehensive of drugs.........I try not to take any. The only miracle pill i believe in are vitamin pills......

So when prescribed with clomid, I was skeptical about it.........and I was perhaps in denial too although it is difficult to admit. I did not want to believe that i need help to get pregnant.

My doctor wasn't a very good one. She has too many patients waiting in line that she rush things and never took time to explain anything to me. It was just........"yes, nope....you are not pregnant. Take this today for 5 days and come back on this date........ out you go..."
I hated that........but i have no choice.......i go to her out of convenience. I would prefer my family doctor......but i was uncomfortable to go to her on this due to certain circumstances...

At home, I googled and learn up about clomid.
Was slightly disturbed at some of the side effects of clomid. Consulted the hubby and decided that.......lets give ourselves another chance. Lets see if i can ovulate naturally without clomid for this round because I was to go back to check if im ovulating properly.

So........I did not take the pills.